funny things

my work people are so hilarious, i think its because we are all females,
yesterday my senior lecturer(G) was working with me in the chemist and she was asking one of the girls, lets call the girl D, about her love life, and it went like this
G-so are you still with that fella of yours or you got a new one?
D-which new one?
G-the one you met in Barbados
D-oh you mean BIGGUS DICKUS,* laughs loudly* yeah im still with him
G-well thanks a lot for the details(!)

it was soo funny, i though i was going to die of laughter, G is an elderly lady of 52 and slightest prudish from what ive gathered. the look on her face was a right picture! hehe

Something else happened to me a few days ago, chemist phone rings, therefore i go to answer since no one else ever does!
me-hello********* pharmacy, how may i help you?
person-hiya, im having a fag! (as in a cigarette)
me-uh huh ?
person-im trying to quit, it didn't last long, are you shout at me?
me-well no, quitting and having the commitment to quit is up to you, i cant shout at you
person-im going try to quit now, bye
me-bye

i got some more tales to tell, but that's for another time, im ill-ish....

the placement 2

ITS THE WEEKEND! WOHOO! as you can tell i am so happy that its the weekend, two full days of-

• no dispensing
• no feeling guilty that my clinical knowledge is so crappy at times
• not having blanked out moments that you totally lose track of what you were doing
• no misplacing prescriptions
• no looking up and down the shelves to find a particular medication and then you see it on the bench where its been all that time.
• no listening to grumpy people on the phone and then having to repeat yourself all over agin when they come to the chemist to double check if i was telling the truth
• no suppressing the childish urge to laugh at a rude surname of a doctor or patient
• not feeling like to scream at the pervy customers when they are checking you out!!

So far i am enjoying my placement, the staff are really nice and friendly, im meeting a variety of pharmacists and discovering that each one has their own style of doing things. but the pressure of securing a pre registration place is immense, i have to be on top of my game and two weeks into the placement i can say that i am not! i have 6 weeks left to prove that i am what they need and i can develop so much more and better.

the thing that disappoints me the most is the lack of clinical intervention that a pharmacist can do. if there was more clinical interventions that i could see first hand then maybe i would be slightly more enthusiastic in applying my clinical knowledge. its making me think that maybe after the pharmacy degree i need to do something else, something more, but i dont know yet what it is. the plan was to get the degree and go to some third world countries and help them, ive always wanted to go to Pakistan and help there. but something inside me is saying that after this degree i need to study more. i thought that after this degree my first for medical knowledge would be over, but im wrong i dont think that it will ever be over.

p.s happy birthday to my brother!!!! he's 21 today!!x

the placement 1

Ive only been working for two days and it seems like ive been there forever, the little breaks where we stand and eat snacks in the dispensary, the funny customers that say funny things to make us laugh, the comfyness of it all, makes me feel as if ive been there for more than two days. everyone has been so welcoming, more than i imagined them to be. the most remarkable thing is that ive made a friend in such a short space of time, we sit and chat about life, boys and pharmacy ofcourse, the dreaded pre reg exam!!

most of my day consists of me standing on my feet for 7 hours plus, i get a one hour lunch so atleast i can give my poor feet a rest, my toes are killing me! i want to wear flip flops into work but i dont think its allowed. the thing that worries me the most is that i feel inadequate, im not a good practical student pharmacist as i thought i was, maybe because mostly this is my first time in a dispensary and actually counselling real people instead of the practices at uni. last year i spent alot of time on the healthcare section and i was much better at that, and i picked it up within a matter of days and did my exam within 2 weeks. something gives me the feeling that the dispensing exam is going to take much longer for me to pass. the thought of me failing or not being good or should i say excellent at something especially profession wise really irritates me.

today i was such a bimbo! i totally forgot how to counsel a patient on penicillin antibiotics! thats so standard! i had to ask my tutor and she was nice and helpful and told me not to worry but still i should have known how to do it, i did it for my mock exam! i have so much to learn and experience in this medical world, and my feet are getting the worst deal out of it, my toes really hurt........ to be continued

I PASSES MY EXAMS!

hello,
i had my induction day for my summer placement today, it was like all my class was there! well 25 of us! and the remainder five were from different unis, anyways was just as boring as last year and since i was one of the few that has completed a placement last year i have EXTRA work to do and the competition to gain a pre-reg place is so strife and obvious amongst everyone! whatever happened to the love? and I PASSED MY EXAMS! WOHOO! i dont know the actual marks yeat because the website is messed up but my name was on the pass list! next year my masters! im so happy and relieved. from tomorrow i start work at my chemist, hope they like me, im so tired right now i hate commuting into the city.....
i need chai
bye!

Little angel

I was at my aunt's house today she has a 14 year old girl and a 5 year old boy-both so beautiful mashallah and we were talking about whether we should go abroad this year or stay and "discover England" instead, and decided that we should stay since i am will start my job soon and everyones schedule is a bit tight this summer. my aunt was like "i want to go abroad, we have seen most of uk, and my baby hasnt been around the world much, i want to take him and show him places" He stopped playing with his jigsaw puzzle, looked up so innocently and said "but mummy i have, i went with you everywhere when i was in your tummy, i saw everything through your eyes" Awww bless him he's the sweetest and naughtiest child ever.

Driving test

UFFFF i had my driving test today and thats the main reason to why i have not blogged in over a week. Its been consuming so much time, money, energy and is so emotionally draining too. I should have passed my test today as i didnt make any major mistakes. You know what the guy failed me on? being 5 inches wide!! 5 inches! AND then he has the nerve to say to me "you perfect otherwise" wtf?? why couldnt he just pass me, pass me, for the love of allah pass me?

They do it purpose, these people, these driving examiners, bah humbug!

oh yeah and my instructor says i stick my bottom lip out when im getting told off and remind him of a little child and my problem is that i am "too too toooo nice'

whatever i just want to paaasssss and be let free and loose on the roads!!!

A little story about friendship

"Friendship has a special meaning when you have someone with whom to share. It is a gift for the heart and soul to share. It grows with love, laughter, joy, happiness, tears and time. Friendship is that golden bond than even time cannot sever. A gift to last throughout our lives. Friendship is for ever."

This is poem is from a frame piece someone gave to me a very long time ago, someone who used to be my friend. i keep it as a reminder for friendships lost, found and those that are yet to be made. every time i look at the frame piece it serves to me as a constant reminder of how delicate, beautiful and important it is to have friendship in our lives.

I recently joined facebook after resisting for so many months, i see that my practically my whole primary and secondary school/college (i went to a sixth form school) are on there. some old Friends i would like to get re-acquainted with and some that i would rather forget. the ones that i would rather forget were my best friends in primary and secondary surprisingly, the ones that hurt me the most.

I like to think that i am a good Friend, i listen to problems, give good advice, buy nice present that i know the receivers will like, take an active part in the friendships i have, i know when to step back, but at times, the other friend can start to take advantage and abuse the friendship and the trust that forms the bond. this has happened to me not once, twice, BUT three times, and the thing that hurts me most, my so-called friends formed an alliance and hurt me all at the same time. my crime? for being a good, caring and naive friend.

Childhood friendships gone in instances, i wanted to shout out "who was by your side to console

you when your mother passed away? you stood by you when your brother went to jail and people gossiped about your morals and conduct?" but i didn't i stood in silence maintaining all the dignity i could muster.

As time has gone on my wounds have healed even though at times i feel the pain and think "why me?"

After this incidence occured i went off to uni, and was very apprehensive, of course i wanted to make friends, but i had already mentally prepared myself not to be too close to anyone that could end up hurting me. the funny thing is the more i tried to keep people at a distance, the more they wanted to come close to me, and at a point i thought "why not, lets see what happens".

The following two years i end up living with these girls in a apartment and have the best, worst, saddest, craziest and happiest time of my life. i found the meaning of true friendship, it encompasses all the colours of the rainbow-the lightness, darkness and brightness.