End of placement

I havent been keeping up with my blog lately due to many reasons as you may have guessed from my previous posts, alhumdillah my emotional and mental health is getting better......slowly, very slowly day by day. i have to resurface and start living again.

today was the last day of my summer placement with a well known pharmacuetical company howevere still as of yet no reply on whether they will offer me a pre reg place or not. so fingers crossed!! inshallah i hope all turns out well.

for now and hopefully for a long time i am focusing upon myself and my career and hopefully the rest of my life will fall into place.

isnt it strange how in an instance you can change from being a happy, confident and driven person into a living dead person? one dream may have died but the dreams related to my career are still alive, if i fufil them i hope it will allow me to let the past go.

funny things

my work people are so hilarious, i think its because we are all females,
yesterday my senior lecturer(G) was working with me in the chemist and she was asking one of the girls, lets call the girl D, about her love life, and it went like this
G-so are you still with that fella of yours or you got a new one?
D-which new one?
G-the one you met in Barbados
D-oh you mean BIGGUS DICKUS,* laughs loudly* yeah im still with him
G-well thanks a lot for the details(!)

it was soo funny, i though i was going to die of laughter, G is an elderly lady of 52 and slightest prudish from what ive gathered. the look on her face was a right picture! hehe

Something else happened to me a few days ago, chemist phone rings, therefore i go to answer since no one else ever does!
me-hello********* pharmacy, how may i help you?
person-hiya, im having a fag! (as in a cigarette)
me-uh huh ?
person-im trying to quit, it didn't last long, are you shout at me?
me-well no, quitting and having the commitment to quit is up to you, i cant shout at you
person-im going try to quit now, bye
me-bye

i got some more tales to tell, but that's for another time, im ill-ish....

the placement 2

ITS THE WEEKEND! WOHOO! as you can tell i am so happy that its the weekend, two full days of-

• no dispensing
• no feeling guilty that my clinical knowledge is so crappy at times
• not having blanked out moments that you totally lose track of what you were doing
• no misplacing prescriptions
• no looking up and down the shelves to find a particular medication and then you see it on the bench where its been all that time.
• no listening to grumpy people on the phone and then having to repeat yourself all over agin when they come to the chemist to double check if i was telling the truth
• no suppressing the childish urge to laugh at a rude surname of a doctor or patient
• not feeling like to scream at the pervy customers when they are checking you out!!

So far i am enjoying my placement, the staff are really nice and friendly, im meeting a variety of pharmacists and discovering that each one has their own style of doing things. but the pressure of securing a pre registration place is immense, i have to be on top of my game and two weeks into the placement i can say that i am not! i have 6 weeks left to prove that i am what they need and i can develop so much more and better.

the thing that disappoints me the most is the lack of clinical intervention that a pharmacist can do. if there was more clinical interventions that i could see first hand then maybe i would be slightly more enthusiastic in applying my clinical knowledge. its making me think that maybe after the pharmacy degree i need to do something else, something more, but i dont know yet what it is. the plan was to get the degree and go to some third world countries and help them, ive always wanted to go to Pakistan and help there. but something inside me is saying that after this degree i need to study more. i thought that after this degree my first for medical knowledge would be over, but im wrong i dont think that it will ever be over.

p.s happy birthday to my brother!!!! he's 21 today!!x

the placement 1

Ive only been working for two days and it seems like ive been there forever, the little breaks where we stand and eat snacks in the dispensary, the funny customers that say funny things to make us laugh, the comfyness of it all, makes me feel as if ive been there for more than two days. everyone has been so welcoming, more than i imagined them to be. the most remarkable thing is that ive made a friend in such a short space of time, we sit and chat about life, boys and pharmacy ofcourse, the dreaded pre reg exam!!

most of my day consists of me standing on my feet for 7 hours plus, i get a one hour lunch so atleast i can give my poor feet a rest, my toes are killing me! i want to wear flip flops into work but i dont think its allowed. the thing that worries me the most is that i feel inadequate, im not a good practical student pharmacist as i thought i was, maybe because mostly this is my first time in a dispensary and actually counselling real people instead of the practices at uni. last year i spent alot of time on the healthcare section and i was much better at that, and i picked it up within a matter of days and did my exam within 2 weeks. something gives me the feeling that the dispensing exam is going to take much longer for me to pass. the thought of me failing or not being good or should i say excellent at something especially profession wise really irritates me.

today i was such a bimbo! i totally forgot how to counsel a patient on penicillin antibiotics! thats so standard! i had to ask my tutor and she was nice and helpful and told me not to worry but still i should have known how to do it, i did it for my mock exam! i have so much to learn and experience in this medical world, and my feet are getting the worst deal out of it, my toes really hurt........ to be continued

Random things 1 :)

1. The iifa awards came and went with out a bang, bollywoods finest in Yorkshire and still nothing excited happened apart from arjun rampal getting booed off stage, salman kicking katrina out of their hotel room, two chav gangs fighting in the audience-information provided by a friend who was actually derailed enough to go.
2. My driving instructor asked me if i had blonde hair under my hijab!......wtf?? apparently i remind him of a blonde, confused barbie doll, he's weird but keeps me entertained.
3. There is an imposter!! there has been various sightings of a girl that look exactly like me! i have to find her, im sooo curious to see my look-a-like.
4. Arghh its soo hard to lose 7 lbs! and its half way through June, need to up the ante
5. Daddy's birthday bbq went good, weather was hot and i turned a blind ear to all that was being said, too bad i didnt turn a blind mouth, because i think i stepped on a few toes....eeeekkkkkkk
6. I HATE APPLICATION FORMS! applying for pre-reg and its sooo tedious, got so many to do yet and they all ask weird questions e.g please state the number of prescriptions of the last pharmacy store you worked for. so are they asking me per day, per week, per month, per hour even?? and how the hell am i suppose to know? i can remember exactly how much because we were more of an "over the counter pharmacy" than a "prescription pharmacy" blehhhhh

Who is Spirit seeker?

The answer: i do not know who spiritual seeker is.

I have been deciding on and off for quite some time to start a blog of my own, the reason why?

• I do not know who i am-well i do know who i am as in my legal, professional identity, family etc but i am still hoping there is more to me
• Hopefully blog will be a visual reminder of my trials and tribulations, good times, sad times, happy times inshallah
• I need a place to talk about my view and opnion on things
• I am curious about the life of a blogger and can only find out if i am a blogger myself!

I have just finished my batchelor's degree in pharmaceutical science and inshallah next year will be my final year at university and i will gain my M pahrmacy degree!

I have got summer holidays as of yesterday and that means nearly four whole months off, but for two months of that i am going to be working so :( and :) at the same time.

I think its going to be interesting blogging away for four months about my summer vacation and all the commotion which no doubt will come with it!